You’re my hallucination,
My masturbation,
My deepest desire in here.

The fantasy’s perfectly clear,
My own Adonis,
Intelligent and honest.

To meet would shatter the dream,
Life’s not what it seems,
You’re far too special for me.

I’m fat and ugly you’ll see,
Insecure and scarred,
Unable to drop my guard.

So it’s best to stay apart,
Keep guarding my heart,
Forever my fascination.